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[tlvop]

 I am very, very easy to hurt emotionally. Mostly because my logic tends to be me-centered instead of you-centered (you being general).

So (in my mind/emotional process) if you don't do something unimportant you said you would, it's not because a) you're busy b) you just forgot c) something else innocuous, it's because I've done something to annoy you and you hate me and I'm a horrible person who is always going to mess friendships up.

Over-melodramatic, I know, but it's honestly how I respond to things. Mostly because half the time irl it's been true.

So when you say you'll do something, do it. Or give qualifiers before hand, or let me know when it's being delayed why it is and when it is being delayed until and then meet that deadline.

Please. I am really effing sick of driving myself to tears because people've forgotten little things they told me they'd do months ago.

and feel free to call me on when I do this, and poke me to continue. There ARE legitimate reasons lots of times, for me as well as you guys though I just suck at recognizing it in other people, so POKE ME. Because I don't want to make anyone else feel this bad, and I don't want to forget anyone. If you want to give permission for me to poke you too, that'd be nice, but I won't without permission. Because probably most of the time you guys honestly don't want to do whatever you said you would.

Thanks for listening to my ramble. Sorry for being stupid.

Comments

[wakeupnew]

hi lovely. many hugs and an email winging your way shortly.

[dictator-duck.livejournal.com]

*snugs* will to be checking soon

[varadia]

Iiiii totally fell asleep at the computer last night.

I think this is the first time you have been subjected to this little quirk of mine.

SORRY. *hugs lots*

[dictator-duck.livejournal.com]

That is okay. I was a little worried re: that I was boring you/being annoying, but I wasn't sure if you'd been disconnected or just gone to bed without saying anything because a couple of my friends have a tendency to just disappear so it's okay. <33. *hugs* I hope you did not get neck cramps?

[bigfluffball.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Oh hon, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. If it makes you feel better, most people do forget stuff harmlessly, and I hope that in time you'll be able to feel more confident about unreliable people.

You're not stupid. And should the situation arise, you may always poke me.

[dictator-duck.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank you, dear. I think it is logic vs. emotions. Logically they probably did. But what if this time they didn't? Except every time is 'this time'.

Um. yeah. *snugs* i shall be sure to do so though, woah, we definitely don't talk to each other enough. Stupid timezones. All...existing...

[silverpenlight.livejournal.com]

No stupid! And I'm so sorry if I've forgotten something, hon, I just have no brain lately and if I have forgotten something, I would suggest smacking me with a bat. Or something.

*snuggles on lots*

[dictator-duck.livejournal.com]

*hugs* If you have, I have too? I do not recall. On unrelated note: we did discuss doing Abigail-Ben OOM sometime. I know we are both lacking brains atm, but is like tag-every-day-or-two slowtime ok for you, or do you think we should just let it be?

*snuggles* And there will be no bats. Just poke-y fingers.

[skygiants]

If you don't know by now that you can poke me any time, you haven't been listening. *hugs*

[rymenhild.livejournal.com]

Ditto.

[dictator-duck.livejournal.com]

I do poke you! Lots! Maybe too much. But you are one of the v. few. *snuggles* And you have promised so many things and done them that my worry rarely gets beyond the "I wonder if I--no, don't be stupid" stage.

[cupenny.livejournal.com]

*snugz* *now worries*

I've missed talking to you.

[dictator-duck.livejournal.com]

do not worry! I've missed talking to you too. The few times I break my rule in order to sneak on for a half hour or hour (or longer on weekends) you have either been away or not on. I think possibly I am signing on too late and you are in bed? *snuggles* And do not wrry, really.

[cupenny.livejournal.com]

The last week or so has been hectic. *snugz* I'll be on late tonight (closing shift, so after 11 my time), if you're on as well. If not- school and sleep are important things!


PS- It amuses me that "Finn the Heartbreaker" fits on very different levels.

[dictator-duck.livejournal.com]

I might styill be on! <33 can't promise but it's likely. Also, dude, that makes me laugh too. He is only an emotional heartbreaker in Shipfic! And it is not on purpose :O!

[genarti]

I think you know that you can poke me any time. :) But, uh, if that needs to be made clear: poke me any time! Especially if I've forgotten something I said I'd do. Because I am very distractable, occasionally by such complex things as "breathing," and odds are excellent that I just totally forgot about something.

*hugs a lot*

You know I think you are awesome, yes? Because. You are awesome! So.

[dictator-duck.livejournal.com]

Yes! I know. I do not worry about you, because I have excessively and you've pointed out the flaws of my worries :P. *hugs*

I think you are awesome also! And that icon is absurdly cute. *waves hallo back*

[genarti]

Batya made the icon! It is among my favorites ever.

That one is adorable too, however. HI TINY FRIENDLY CLEANER-BOT. I WILL HANG OUT WITH YOU EVEN IF ANTIMONY DOES NOT.

[dictator-duck.livejournal.com]

verily, you are nice and the cleanerbot is well pleased. \o/

[starpaint.livejournal.com]

*hugs a lot*

I.... suck at following through on things. My mom spent most of the last 3 days listing the vast number of things I'd said I'd do and forgot to do or put off one day, and then the next day, and then the next day, and then the day after that, and I REALLY SUCK AT IT and it is BAD and blargh. So. *hugs* If I am being an idiot, poke me. You are wonderful at poking people when they are being dumb. It is a talent! Or something.

[nillion.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm not sure to what degree any of this is pointed at me, but I am forgetful, so it might come up IRL anyway.

So yeah. If I say I'm going to do something for you, and don't... I've forgotten. It happens a lot. Just remind me. I'm almost never mad at anyone, and my habit is to confront people over differences and resolve them, so on the rare occasion that I do get mad, you'll easily know.

And you sound way, way too much like me. Worrying of that sort is my domain, don't you know. I touch someone on their bare shoulder, and I worry they somehow took offense, and muddle about how I can make it up to them for the rest of the day.